tell yourself it's easy

i have been having trouble sleeping. i've been really restless, and when i lie in bed, my mind and heart races. i worry excessively and i know it, but not sleeping makes things even worse.

it's a viscous cycle really. i end up getting really tired, so i don't want to get out of bed in the morning. but, then when i get out of bed late, i get mad at myself for wasting so much time. i don't think i have gotten up with my alarm a single morning since i've been back in guelph.

do you ever reach that point, when you're feeling so overwhelmed that you don't even want to keep trying? almost as if you know that you're so behind that there is no point in working hard to get caught up because it will never happen? well, whenever i think i have reached that point, i really haven't. my situation is not so unbearable, so out of control that i could not still work really hard and pull it back together. it's just tiring. so, because i'm so pooped, i tell myself that i can't do it. i tell myself that it isn't possible. but it surely is.

the song from anastasia (the animated movie) came into my head this morning while i was walking to do some grocery shopping. *Note: don't judge me just because i know the songs to Disney and other animated movies. i still watch them* :

Pull yourself together
And you'll pull through it!
Tell yourself it's easy
And it's true!

so, i suppose i just need a little more confidence. here i go...