need a spoon?

i have never underestimated the true value of physial contact. i was raised in a family that shared affection through hugs and kisses. in my relationship i liked showing my love through physical intimacy. this past little while, while i've been hanging out primarily in guelph with my female friends, i have been sorely missing that contact.

this past weekend one of my roommates broke up with her boyfriend. he initiated the end of their relationship, but it had been something that she had talked to me about for a little while. nevertheless, she was very upset. some of the things that she said reminded me so much of feelings that i had experienced that it brought me to tears. she brought to light a sentiment that i shared, that we felt "home" when we had been with our significant others.

after talking to her and helping her get through the first really rough patch, i found myself needing to be held. there are very few things that are as comforting as being spooned. it might sound silly, but it remains a closeness that i yearn for.

i can almost understand how loneliness can lead to one night stands or sex buddies. i miss the sensation of sleeping next to someone. i miss the feeling of waking up in someone's arms. i miss sex. but, i miss all the feelings that made sex that much better, too. i suppose i hope that people that have someone to go home to at night don't take it for granted. and, i hope that i'll be able to find it again soon.